I walk as a ghost
Silent
Quiet
Hidden
I wander through the world
Merge with the environment
Like chameleon
Not surprising
Say my thoughts
You can embarrass yourself
All laughing over you behind your back
Boredom is your 2nd Name
Unimportant
They whisper to me
But my heart yearns
Notice
Smile
Joy
Love
Attention
wishes it
But the thoughts walls
Want to keep the old
Afraid
Rejection
To be hurt
A constant struggle within me
Heart versus mind
Who gets the upper hand
Will win
Determines my life
I stay a gohst
Or
I’ll BE
Thought
Invisible
Not tangible
Insubstantial
Infinitesimal
But powerful
Strong
The divinity in man
Heading
Influence
Make strong
Make weak
Happy
Sad
Rob sleep
Go their own way
Thought
So small and yet overpowering
Why?
Why do I never see anything positive in me?
Why should I be still open?
Why should I explain me?
If it is not respected!
Why wish for something?
If the request is ignored!
Why try to have joy?
If this is then destroyed yet again.
Why?
I only want life!
Why should and I can not do that?
Why should I keep fighting, if it becomes more strenuous?
Eventually, the energy is exhausted!
And then?
What happens then?
Once gain energy?
But why?
If there will again go wrong!
Just give up?
Escape?
Where?
But maybe everything is just a bad dream
And I wake up happy !
Why I do not believe it
